What would it be like if I got everything figured out? If I had a solid list of what I have and what I dont, and could just figure it all out. I hate uncertainty, yet at the same time I like it, not knowing.
My fear is that all of this ends up being nothing, that its all in my head and im making up in my head or reading into it or something like that. What if I am? What if it’s nothing at all?