I woke up exhausted as always and had a few hours to chill at home before I went to work. I got excited before work because there was a chance of thunderstorms and some of them were moving toward me. I got to work and the thunderstorms died and my student was being rather frustrating and excitment soon turned to anger and sadness. Then I got an email about doing some of my payroll wrong and that just made it worse. Work dragged on for a couple more hours and when I finally got done all I wanted to do was to do nothing at all.
My new laptop was having a couple of issues with my new laptop so I wanted to take it to the store to see if they could fix it so I asked my mom if I could go and see what they could do and someone we ended up getting a little heated and then she all of a sudden said
“I’m worried about you…”
“you’re always so angry”
I was taken aback but quickly hugged her to prevent her from seeing my shocked face and said
It would have been so easy to say I’m not ok, but I couldn’t do it. I dont want her to know but at the same time I secretly home she keeps persuing being “worried about me.”
Then I got into a lovely fight with my dad and sister…and here I am.
Today was a shitty day…Blech.
Side note, saw this, so true!
Being sad is crying then moving on. Being depressed is getting to a point where you don’t even cry anymore, you just sit there, numb.