This week has been a really great and crappy week at the same time, it has had a lot of ups and downs. I commited to my favorite college. At times this week I havent been able to stop myself from smiling while during other I felt so hurt and broken. Ugh this is awful. The meds that im on arent working and nothing is working at all. I want to cut so badly right now. For some reason this week I have also felt so vounerable, things like teachers telling me im doing something wrong has all of a sudden made me feel so god awful. I have also been reading this book that is a really good book but there is a character in it who cuts profusely to cope with PTSD and depression which has kind of been triggering but its such a good book.
Nothings working and I feel so hopeless and so angry.
I’m sorry for the incoherentness of this post.